This week has been a long one, at least it seems to have been. Today I woke up to the rumbling of thunder. Definately going to be a lazy day.
Lately I have found myself thinking about a lot of things. I think I mentioned before that my dad found out he has prostate cancer last week. He started his treatments on Thursday and seems to be handling it all well. He tells me he is ready for whatever God has in store for him. My mom passed away 13 years ago this coming September and despite the doctor telling dad that this isn't going to be what he'll die of, I don't find it very reassuring. I miss my mom terribly and don't even want to think of what it would be like without my dad too. I'm sure most of you can relate to what I am feeling. Is this what happens when we get older? I find myself thinking on how I remember when my parents were my age.
On to brighter subjects... I had a job interview yesterday. Its at a retirement/assisted living facility in Cape Girardeau. They are looking to fill several positions and while I could have full time, I applied for a position as a part time baker. It would basically be for 3 days a week which would be good while I am trying to complete my associates degree.... though I have been having thoughts of just trying for full time. DH is totally against me working full time right now because he is really pushing me to get that degree.
In my defense, I don't know if I can handle work, going to school and him going to school too. Since he found out he had multiple sclerosis and would qualify for schooling, he has had his heart set on going for a degree in Agri-Business. I know that wanting something is a big factor but I worry he won't be able to handle the homework and I know I personally don't want to worry about doing mine and his both. That probably sounds bad but when we went to pick up his high school transcripts last week I was shocked. Lets just say his grades were not the best and if he did so poorly in high school how can he expect to do well enough to pass a college course.
I am afraid now that he has sent all of that information in to the college he may be disappointed if they turn him down. In the meantime, I just keep trying to support him even though I'm worried he won't be able to handle it. Does that make me a bad person??? When he had his hearing for his disability, the judge suggested he try a home-based business... I wish he would think a little more on that at least for a second option.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Well, I better get moving. I think I may bake some bread. It sounds like something nice to do on a rainy day. Take care all and I hope you have a good weekend!Debbie